Tuesday, November 7, 2006

Tuesdays are for watching fish.

I read a story recently about a woman walking around in Denver who heard a baby cry and upon looking up, saw an infant dangling from the balcony above her. She moved into position and caught the tiny girl when she fell. She said she felt it was fate that put her under that balcony at the right moment.

When you think about it, everything in your life is leading up to something. Maybe one great event that you'll be part of or even initiate. Maybe many small events you might not even notice in the moment. But everything in your life is always leading up to the next thing.

Are you aware of what you do? Are you mindful of your role in the lives of those around you?

Most of us aren't. I believe in fate and I try to be aware of what my role in life is but I know I miss 80% of the things I'm part of. You don't know till after the fact and sometimes you simply never know. Not everyone gets to catch a baby or pull someone out of the street or witness a crime and help catch the bad guy. It's not always surrounded by the big neon "THIS IS YOUR DESTINY" sign.

It's been 5 and a half weeks since I lost my Puck. When I think about her (and I do so very frequently), the only thing that keeps me from crying is reminding myself that I was her human and she was my dog and it was for a reason. If I hadn't worked at the hardware store and I hadn't tried to be everyone's friend, Doug would never have kept her. He would have put her down when he first found her because she was a mess and one more mouth he couldn't really afford to feed. If I hadn't taken her, I wouldn't have taken so many walks and met the friends I did. I wouldn't have gotten around to moving out when I did and I wouldn't have moved to Dallas and been in the right place at the right time to meet the boy. So maybe it's fate or maybe it's luck. I don't know.

I don't know what right now is leading up to. Every moment is leading to the next and every day brings you closer to the person you're meant to be. Be aware, be available, be open, be ready.


  1. it truly is amazing what all the little events add up to!! and the events just keep on happening :)

  2. It occurs to me now that when I posted this, I was just days pregnant with Izzy and didn't know yet. Of course, looking back, I felt many times that Puck only left to leave us ready for a baby.